A few days ago I felt so uncertain. I felt overwhelmed that my life may not actually turn out the way I desire it to. The next day I tried to keep myself busy in order to delay the thoughts of negativity. Then yesterday, I felt like things were actually getting better and although my busy schedule didn't change I don't feel as sad and unsure. Today, well today was the best day. It was full of laughs and certainty. This is hard. This roller coaster ride is not something I want to be on forever. My life motto is everything happens for a reason. Everything won't be peachy but I know it will have a reason behind it. If I could grab hold of those negative things and see them in new light then maybe my roller coaster rides wouldn't be so horrendous. Most of the time I make it through those terrible days by leaning closely to my family. I am the oldest of three girls. Their ages are fifteen, six, and four. They are my life and sometimes mistaken as my own, given, growing